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Saturday, 14 May 2011

  • Eight years!?

    I don't know if this last year even counts, though, I've posted so infrequently.

    During this year, however,

    - I graduated with my BA

    - I moved back to the California foothills

    - I adventured in England

     

    Those are probably the biggest external events.  Difficult to list are the internal changes I've undergone.  In many ways, I am not the person I was a year ago.  Many of my goals and interests have changed dramatically or have been cut entirely.  I even feel that my personality has changed.  I like the person that I am becoming, simultaneously more interested in change and firm in what I believe.

    It's been a tough year, but I am so happy to be where I am today, surrounded and supported by friends and family.  I have a job that I love, live in a breathtakingly beautiful area, and am taking my time discovering what I want to be.  One of the biggest ideas I've embraced over the past year is that there is no "arriving."  Life is not a journey from point A to point B, it's a network of points and each moment, each decision is an important node on the web of life.  I'm working on relaxing into that philosophy.  Enjoying being present, "here."  I'm in a really great place in life at the moment, though, and it's getting easier and easier.

    Anyway, thanks xanga, for all you've been to me over the years.  My readership has come and gone in many waves, but it's neat to have my last 8 years of development so nicely laid out.   

Tuesday, 01 February 2011

Tuesday, 30 November 2010

Saturday, 27 November 2010

  • waaw?

    Hi.  Things are crazy.  I'm finishing my final papers for my BA this week.  And moving back to Sonora next Sunday.

    I miss this writing venue.

    Here's something I found in my notes from the summer.


    "Think of me in a broader context than our immediate relationship. I am not your daughter. I am not your wife. I am not your elbow. I am an intricate network of people and places, a pinprick on the charts of history, interconnected and universal, a hub, a wheel, a tangential segment branching off from a hundred thousand conversational curves. I am a line among spheres. Some within, some without, intersecting, dividing. I am never alone and yet I seek solitude in the face of your expectations. Do not face me. Love me. Be within me as I am within you. Be infinite as I seek to be infinite. Expand your demands until they are the oceans of thoughts we float in, among the currents of historical action and every novel about (human) conflict ever written."

     

    I wish I still knew what I was talking about then, because it sounds pretty BA (in the second sense).

     

    To bed, to bed...

Monday, 08 November 2010

  • Packing up the peripheries of my life today.

    Thoughts:

    1. I might not have enough books.

    2. my only two pieces of furniture are bookcases.

    3. I'm so ready to root for a while... there are skills I've been meaning to pick up again.  Tennis, flute, painting, cooking, yoga......